not worth that kind of thinking
She asked if you were seeing someone
and I wanted to say, “yes, me.”
but I guess that’s not true.
And she mentioned a woman
blonde, “hangs out here sometimes”
and I thought immediately of …
“Oh, no. They’re just friends.”
But we were talking about
two different blonde women.
and once I realized the confusion
my heart sank.
And it was all I could do to remember a friend’s words:
“If it’s that easy for him to move on,
than he’s not worth the love you have to give.”
But that logic doesn’t help much now
when nothing seems to make sense
and the pain is so intense
difficult to breathe and I almost wish I
but just almost.
(cause you’re not worth that kind of feeling)
and it’s all I can do to keep myself from thinking,
“What did I do wrong now?”
because it’s not fair that I always take the blame
for your insecurities.
/ / /
Gina Marie Thompson
August 23, 2014