last night the moon
last night the moon was still large in the sky
despite it being two days since it was full
I felt the magnetic pull of the earth
separate your heart from mine
a sensation crept along my skin
the way waves slip across the shore as the moon guides them in.
I didn’t like it.
And when I went inside my blue bungalow
the creaking wood and two familiar voices calling me
I felt unhinged and numb
what’s the opposite of reborn?
I make lists in my journal of “wants” and “needs”
and you never seem to make it on both lists completely.
But neither does he.
I can’t have both and I can’t choose between
some days I want neither
today while I rinsed egg whites off my fingers
I talked of being pulled in too many ways
and I almost set my heart free and almost
set it on fire
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State College PA
6 May 2015